April 1, 2009
Stages of Faith
All right, this will the first official subject in my series for those who are LDS and struggling. It is rather complex, so I have been working on this for several days in order to fully cover the topic. Most of the other subjects I will be writing about in the future will not go on for so long, so don’t get too scared off!
As I mentioned in my previous post, because of some of the social pressure within our church (although, I would assume that such pressure is not limited to being LDS, and I’m sure manifests in other denominations), often those whose testimonies are wavering feel isolated and alone and unable to find positive support as they work through their confusion. They feel ashamed that they are having doubts even as they struggle to overcome them.
What I would like to discuss is the idea that not only is it perfectly normal to confront your beliefs, it might actually be a step on the path to a higher level of faith. I recently became acquainted with James Fowler’s theory on the stages of faith. For a brief summary of his work, check out this site, or just Google it–there are plenty of other sources. I will admit that I have not read the actual book, just heard a couple of podcasts and read some websites, but the concept intrigues me.
From what I understand, Fowler was analyzing how people related to their faith, whatever faith that might be–Christian or Jewish or Buddhist or possibly even Atheist–throughout the course of their lives. After conducting hundreds of interviews and surveys, he found a common pattern that occurred all across the board, corresponding with certain times of life and, I assume, brain development, and categorized this pattern into several stages.
The descriptions of each stage is very complex, with a lot of psychological/ philosophical jargon that is difficult to understand unless you have training in this area. I do not have training in this area, so I just did the best that I could. I tried to write a simplified description of some of the primary traits of each stage as I understood them and how I related them to my LDS experience, but it kind of made this post ridiculously long, so I decided to post that description separately. It might be just as much reading material, but at least it’s broken up a bit! (And you won’t have to read through the whole thing to get to my point)
I gained a lot of insight from each stage description. One thing I noticed is that the transition from stage to stage is pretty tense. These transitions are a time of soul-searching, meditation, and truth-seeking. Each transition moves us from one important stage to the next, from a child’s unquestioning acceptance, to a teenager’s quest for independent belief, to an adult’s strong faith in the precepts of their chosen religion. Each transition is an opportunity to strengthen faith and progress in our understanding of spiritual truths.
The part I find most interesting about all this is that the most difficult transition Fowler describes is characterized by disillusionment, doubt and confusion after the stage where a firm, independent, adult testimony is obtained. This transition can be brought on by exposure to conflicting ideas, betrayal within a relationship, or an issue with authority figures within the religion, among other things. I was surprised that these were specifically mentioned, because aren’t these problems the basis for many people’s loss of faith? Acceptance of anti-mormon arguments, a grudge held against a bishop, a difficult divorce, or feeling unaccepted by a ward or branch are often leading causes for members to question their faith.
The amazing thing is that the next stage is one of peace and greater spiritual understanding. Those who make it past the stressful transition period reach a stage when they are firm and secure in their beliefs and find deeper meaning in the scriptures and in temple worship. This is the point I think we are all trying to reach,where we have truly examined our belief system and found that it holds up, after all. However, we cannot reach this stage of unshakable faith without the trials faced in our transitional stage, whether that transition was marked by physical, emotional, or intellectual struggles.
I think this is why these stages of faith speak to me so much. I have come to believe that each of us must face an Abrahamic trial of some sort in our lives. It might not be as obvious as a one-time test of our obedience to a one-time commandment, as Abraham’s was. But then again, it might be! This “test” is different for every person. It could be a medical problem, the loss of a spouse or child, recurring financial stress, intellectual conundrums, not being able to get married or have children, or any other number of earthly trials. In effect, it is any situation which shakes you to the core and makes you firmly examine whether your faith is built on a foundation of stone or of sand. It might be something that is over within a few weeks, or it might be a lifelong problem. Those whose faith cannot stand up to the test fall away. Those who realize that their faith is strong enough to carry them across that gulf rarely need to question it again. It makes me think of the story of the Martin-Willey handcart company, and the lore that not one of the people who went through that terrible experience ever left the church.
I have often shared the analogy of the stepping stone in lessons and talks I have given. If you are climbing a mountain, and you come across a large rock blocking the path in front of you, you have two options: you can either see that rock as a stumbling block that will cause you to fall or stop your progress, or you can see it as a stepping stone, which, if you go to the effort to climb it, will bring you up to higher ground. The nature of the rock itself does not change, only the way you choose to see it.
Personally, I don’t think I have gone through this kind of trial. I’d say I’m somewhere in the solid testimony stage with the occasional glimpse of that transition period. I can’t say that I’m really looking forward to it! But I hope that I can pass the test, when the time comes. My main purpose in sharing all this information with you who feel that you are full-fledged in the middle of that period of disillusionment and confusion is that you will remember that if you can just get through this difficult time, there is peace waiting on the other side.
“My peace I leave unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” (John 14:27)
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